Don't tell me this is unnecessary. I know you can keep that promise, because I know you won't tell me anything at all. I'm used to the silence at this point.
For today's entry, I have a little story about my experience with creating for YouTube, and how my interests line up with that, and how maybe I'd like to be a little well-known on that platform, and how I only knew how to make trash when I was eleven, and how times have changed... and so there. Here is what you so obviously need to know.
First off is that I tend to be sarcastic to the point where I most often end up making fun of myself. So I am being very self-aware when I implied that nobody is going to say anything via comment on this journal, because nobody needs to, and because nobody cares. But don't let that get in the way of you reading this, I guess. Contribute to the numbers of glory, the views, that are the fuel of my existence, and all that. Also I love commas and ellipses.
So now that you know... I'll just get right into it.
I was introduced to YouTube the same way I was introduced to most of what the youthful internet had to offer, that is, through my brother, who you may know as
Jackasplat. I must have thought that he knew everything about this magic computer business, so I just ate up anything he laid down. This meant that YouTube was the largest thing on our minds. It was absolutely fascinating, humble, digestible, and overarchingly creative. It wasn't as corrupted by large-scale corporations and businesses back then, as I suppose most of you pre-millennials must already know, so it was much more of an experience. And it was also inspiring, which quickly led to my brother trying out his hand in video production using the affluent Windows Movie Maker, back when it kind of almost didn't suck, completely. He knew how to use it, whereas I didn't, but that didn't stop me then. I had interests in Pivot videos, Roblox, reversed television clips, and just completely obscure video games, um, like most eleven-year-olds. And all of my videos were trash.
BUT!
That didn't stop 20 particularly blind individuals from eventually subscribing to me. And perhaps that would have pushed me to keep creating and trying new things and getting better at what I enjoyed doing, so that one day I'd be slightly better off than when I started, but perhaps I had better things to do. And so, after about a year of making garbage videos, I stopped. It seemed like I was done for good.
But there has always been an impatient, number-obsessed, inattentive artist in me, you could say, if you would like something to say. I decided I might want to return to creating things for YouTube about four years later, then spent a few months in decision limbo, and then finally decided that I should scrap my old channel and start a completely new one. I called it "TheDitaeric", which means absolutely nothing, unless you think that 'ditaeric' is a word, which would only be true if you were a half-empty moronic tackwad talking about himself on the internet at one in the morning. So I had set to making a few still-image "music videos" for some of my Rytmik Retrobits creations, and I had Windows 10's Movie Maker at my side to crush my dreams. I mean, it's
okay, but it's entirely incomprehensive. I was simply
born
for som
ething mor
e.
It was around this time that I discovered HitFilm Express, which was free, which was perfect, because I was ready to get into something better. I was all up for making some YTPs, some better music videos, some weird stuff, and even a channel introduction video. Some of those ideas bloomed pretty well into fruition, but then I realized that I'm not very good at video-making, so my ambition died down a tad. But that didn't stop my mind from craving a different username.
I had changed the name of my new channel only once. The new name was Fallacius, which is the name I've given the most attention to. I uploaded nothing new under this new tag, and once again my interest in YouTube went into the trash. So that's really boring.
But it doesn't get interesting. I suddenly and recently thought to myself that maybe I should just scrap this new idea and go back to my old, broken channel. That would give me some different benefits, such as a larger subscriber pool, as well as a more simple future and a decent video base to build off of. So, since I had nothing better to do yesterday, I played on a Maplestory private server for seven hours, skipped two meals, and went with my new new idea. And I saw, not that it was news to me, that the old channel was labeled with my real name. And so I went
"NOPE! " and changed it to Kensuo, which also should mean nothing, unless you look it up on Google and get some bullcrap result about how it means "you love money" or "c
olorful and fascinating you are an amazing person with a magnetic personality!" Don't ask me.
I'll conclude by saying it didn't really matter what choice I went with in the end, because I could easily use two channels if I had enough people to cater to categorically, but I think that this will do just fine for now. I can hide the really terrible videos until I get a little higher up the ladder, at which point I'll just.. un-hide them, after which people can take a look at my super incredible humble AND inspiring amazing past and how far I've come since the dark days of elementary school.
TL;DR Fallacius is dead for now, I'm using my very old YouTube account-with-a-new-name Kensuo as my main channel. I'm still going to plan on making the same things as I planned on making before. There are benefits in choosing the deep-rooted channel over the new one, so I'm choosing it. Goodbye, and have a nice day You probably linked to this page through another journal of mine. Click
here to see that journal, and look under the YouTube heading to look at just a tiny bit of reasoning for this journal to exist.